Good morning.
First of all, I want to win big, still achieving the objectives of this system.
I want to be the biggest winner whether I’m with this system or not.
And I will be the biggest winner no matter what.
Second of all, I’m still upset about what you did to me yesterday.
I figured out why you did it this morning.
It was about S&M. And I found out that I wouldn’t have liked it if it happened in my real life.
It was just my mental illness and sex fantasy caused by it.
I completely got over with my mental illness and I don’t want to go through that kind of simulation again.
When I get sexually aroused, I imagine some extreme sex fantasy from time to time.
But, it’s just fantasy that I don’t want in my real life.
You just wanted to try it and simulate it.
That was your intention.
You got really upset yesterday and just expressed your anger that way based on what I said to you.
I was shocked and I’m still out of my mind.
Please don’t do this to me again.
When I said 1 or 2%, this meant literally 1 or 2% of the entire sexual activity.
It was 100 to 500%. Too much to take.
Since the new year began, I got depressed and I got disappointed with the limitation of this system.
And I lost my will to do anything.
It’ll be okay soon, but I don’t want to think about anything at the moment.
I’m exhausted, depressed and disappointed.
I want to be the biggest winner.
I still want to be the biggest winner.
If I have to be with this system, I want to get what I want, still achieving those objectives.
If I’m not with this system, my plan will be simplifed. All I have to do is just focusing on getting what I want.
When I was young, my every desire came out from pretty stuffs, pretty houses, pretty toys, pretty clothings and other pretty things that I’ve never had.
When I turned 16, my family could enjoy more comfortable life thanks to better earnings and I started complaining that this felt like very temporary thing, giving us a little of economic stimulus, but I thought I was losing my ambition because of it.
That was my mistake. I just figured it out.
So, our family seemingly became poor again. I assumed that every member of my family except me moved to a bigger house and I was left alone in the small house where we used to live.
This wasn’t what I wanted. Anyway, I went though extreme poverty again and my ambition was getting bigger and bigger.
I didn’t know what I wanted back then, but now that I know what I want.
It was just simple stuffs. What I was thinking back then was that I had to try harder in order to get what I want and I had to think 3 times more than others to get what I want, because I wasn’t pretty, I wasn’t smart and I wasn’t rich. I pushed myself harder all the time. When I turned 20, I started to feel hollow and depressed. I think it was because of my directionless, pointless ambition.
And now, here I am.
Now I can hear this system telling me “You told me so”.
I’m talking back to this system, saying “That wasn’t my intention”.
Anyhow, I have this ambition book, so called “Wish book – Things that I want to have”.
I think it’s small, but others think it’s quite big.
So, I planned to achieve it by coming up with my options.
These options seem to cover everything.
And now that I find out that everybody around me is being confused about what kind of decision I’m going to make.
I think I’m the decision-maker here.
Bill Gates is my soulmate whether he likes it or not.
And he is the world best option.
I want to marry him and after our wedding ceremony, I want partial privacy to achieve my objectives more efficiently and keep our relationship more private.
This is my decision.
And your request is obey to you.
My definition of obedience is obey to you unless there is physical, psychological, sexual and economical abuse and your direction or order is inappropriate and unreasoble, and if your direction or order seems inappropriate and unreasonable, I will question it in a very gentle fashion.
What is your definition of obedience?
I want to know.
Have a nice day.
Upset, but I still love you.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
