I want a blusher.
I need a lip pallet.
I’ve got to get an eye shadow pallet.
I’m going to get nose refinement.
I want lower chick bones.
I should make my belly flat this year.
I have so many desires.
I’m not pretty.
But, I’m not that ugly.
Not pretty enough to be a model or an actress, but, I’m just a plain-looking Asian woman.
I just turn 36.
I felt like to choke this morning after I found out another new year just began.
I heard a clock ticking here and there.
I don’t have much time.
Time for what?
Am I the only woman who thinks like this?
Desire for what and whom?
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* Man-oriented commercialism
* Standard of beauty
* History of media
* Pursuing beauty is one of human’s basic instincts?
* Why do men less care about their appearance?
* Cinderella Industry
* Ultimate purpose of women’s pursuing beauty: Rescue or self-contentment?
* Why do we have to try to be beautiful?
* What is my purpose of writing this? To find out
- the current scale of the beauty product market;
- the role of the mecca of women’s fashion – Paris and New York;
- ?????????
* Sexuality and sensuality
* Resbian, has this concept been made for and by us, women?
* What do I want to say in a word? Let’s not confuse readers. There are too many writings flooding into book stores and websites.
Let’s just save their time reading my writing. I don’t know yet. But, I want to scream to the world. “I love what I am. I love who I am.
I will love me whether I’m 36 or I turn 100. I will exist in the world the way I am even when I turn 80 or 90. The clock of my life will still be ticking then, but I won’t care. Because, because………….” see you later. Let me find out this in years, decades or whatsoever.
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