04/20/2008
Mira was amazed ?? ???????.
And she wants to enjoy the convenience of multiple relationship this time.
Happy romance is flowing in her mind.
Anyway, this feeling makes her really happy.
She is trying to enjoy this moment and feeling.
She doesn’t want fake Bill. She wants real Bill.
Today, she spent most of the time imagining a date with him,
thinking about Bill Makeover Project under permission of Melinda.
Every legal issue has been already solved in her imagination.
Nothing stops their relationship and they are free to do anything in public.
How convenient!
This is really thrilling!
Thank you, Bill.
Love you.
Mira
Date: Mon, 21 Apr 2008 08:43:02 +0000
Dear Bill,
I like you the way you are.
The makeover project is just my hobby and habitual thing.
I just like to create and add something to people I like
just for expressing my affection toward them.
So, please don’t take me wrong.
Mira
Date: Tue, 29 Apr 2008 23:48:12 +0000
Hi, Bill.
I’m trying to take a one-year vacation, left as is without any interruption, just all by myself.
I know this is going to be not easy for me to be alone for another year,
but I think I just need one year not disturbed by any one.
I just don’t want to meet any body at the moment.
This doesn’t mean any change on my plan in my wish book.
I still like you and other people mentioned in that book and I really want to
keep those relationships sound and pleasant for the rest of my life.
My life time goal is really simple. Just like many other people, I just want to have a good life
and have fun with good people and as for a good life, everything is as written in the book.
Just simple.
I just want to be left alone for another year.
Even if I complain about it, please understand that I need to be alone for one year
and that is what I want. So, don’t mind what I complain about and consider it as another routine
just for one year. I know men are usually seek solution for everything, but this year, my complaint is just another routine, not wanting any solution and all I want is just being left alone for 1 year. Whatever I say during this period, please ignore it if they are not in the wish book.
That is all I’m asking for.
For your information, I’m not teasing any one.
I like you and love you and truly repect you and all you’ve accomplished
and I’m looking forward to meeting you and other people, but I just want one more year.
Once again, I’m not teasing any one.
Have a good day.
Love you.
Mira
Date: Sun, 4 May 2008 02:28:59 +0000
“Let me clear few things first.
Firstly, I’m not your employee, but your official lover.
Secondly, I love you, I love your brain and I love your money.
Thirdly, I know you have set such a noble objective, you know, helping people,
and I repect your exceptional decision and how you practice it everyday.
However, I think how you actually get there is very important.
You cannot justify your means just because you have a just goal”, she said.
Date: Thu, 8 May 2008 01:06:05 +0000
Like answer to my short wish, he magically came here and did something amazing
to people.
Amazed again with his power and money, she was pretty satisfied with his existence in her life.
Still hoping to meet him, she was enjoying her imagination on the moment when she meets him and the feeling she will have.
Date: Wed, 14 May 2008 22:27:44 +0000
1. Basic elements: Safety, security- physical, mental and material security, sincerity
2. Optional elements: Fun,
Date: Thu, 15 May 2008 23:22:52 +0000
According to the dictionary, the definition of romance is as follows;
━noun
1. a love affair.
2. sentimentalized or idealized love, valued especially for its beauty, purity and the mutual devotion of the lovers.
3. the atmosphere, feelings or behavior associated with romantic love.
4. a sentimental account, especially in writing or on film, of a love affair.
5. such writing, films, etc as a group or genre.
6. a fictitious story which deals with imaginary, etc.
Her definition of romance is more like No. 2 and 3.
Date: Wed, 21 May 2008 23:47:57 +0000
He didn’t do that much.
But, he knows women.
All he did was just making a UCC film with few friends-some friends-,
making his move at right time and waiting for the result.
Simple, but it worked.
Let’s just call it success of his teamwork.
Date: Tue, 27 May 2008 21:33:10 +0000
Belief in magic of love
Date: Tue, 27 May 2008 22:28:57 +0000
Sophisticatedly manipulated coincidence
Date: Sat, 7 Jun 2008 22:40:17 +0000
Too nervous to write to you.
I’m going to stay like this until I get better writing skill.
What if I make any mistake?
I want to write to you informally. I’m afraid of criticism.
I just want to express my feeling frankly and freely.
I feel these days that my brain is divided into 2 separate section, one for Korean and another for English.
When I go with English version, my thought usually goes like this.
blank, blank, and blank, blank…..something, something..
Lots of thoughts, no proper word.
And I’m tired of looking for words now. I’m thinking of staying like this for a while, like a year.
Bill knows how to decide when, what and who. This is key factor of his success.
“Who” part is the most important factor.
Date: Wed, 18 Jun 2008 06:12:18 +0000
When I first wrote to you, I had really strong feeling that I’ve never had before.
And that feeling wasn’t about curiosity or lust. So, it was really new and fresh to me
and I enjoyed it for few weeks.
However, I think they are doing it again. I mean they force me to have sex fantasy on you
as usual.
I really hated it. I hope everything is natural and pure.
This time everything was really special, not like those ones that I had when I was a teenager.
I want to have more mature relationship with you, not based on lust.
Please tell them not to use any type of means to make me aroused-I’m not sure about this expression.
I’m a virgin in English and I feel really good about it.
Please make me stay like this in English. I don’t want to learn any dirty or foul word in English,
since English is kind of academic achievement to me.
With all the power you have-no, only part of it, I think you can control just about everything around me.
I just make this relationship really special and for this, I think I should be physically and mentally healthy.
Can you make me stay healthy? I had forced sexual relationship with 2 people.
I didn’t know at that time, but recently I found that some people used very dirty means to make me
have sex with them.
I found out that I needed to go see a doctor back then. If those people were truly in love with me,
they should have recommended me to go see a doctor first. If I were in their shoes, I would have done like this,
cause I treasured them so much.
I think this is the way things should go.
I really like you, respect you, and treasure you and your everything, so I want you and your everything(?)
to be in really good shape and get even better day by day. This is my core concept of love or affection.
One doesn’t really have to pursue too ideal love, but basically, caring each other is the main concept of love and respect, I think.
If one cares for someone, he or she shouldn’t use any means to get his/her lover in bed and tape stupid porn.
I think I made myself clear.
Have a good day. Love you.
Mira
How do you do?
I’m Mira, Korean and a translator, who is very nervous
about writing this email to you and making any mistake.
I’m very shy and afraid of publicity,
and if I make any mistake now, I’m just afraid of making myself a joke
to the public for years to come.
I’m working on English composition, now and not making that big progress
since it’s summer, so everything is slow.
Please understand me and my writing if there is any grammatically incorrect expression.
I’ve been studying on you for 3 months and I found out you are an amazing person like everybody knows.
Many people, many newspapers, many magazines and many websites are talking about you everyday and not all of them are good or positive stuffs, but one thing that no one can deny is that you’ve worked so hard to establish this giant software industry worldwide and as an entrepreneur, you’ve had a complete blueprint for both the software industry and the society. In this respect, I really admire you and respect you. —- This is really prosaic and you’ve been told this from a lot of people and this isn’t my voice.
Do you want to hear my voice from now on? Very informal and very me and very inconsistent.
No one knows where I’m going and where my thought is going next. Neither do I. I’m going to stay like this for next 2 years and 10 months.
I was moved by your video on your last day at work. You looked so down to earth and everyone in the video looked really cool and friendly, and I really liked it. I gravitated to you and got really attached to you and now I’m pretty obsessed with you, which isn’t good for my mental health.
Writing is very fun thing to do if there isn’t any negative impact on me. I really like to write, but these days, I’m afraid of writing, because I’m afraid of so many negative words and I’m afraid that those words might affect my life.
Just imagine that the words that come from your mouth or your tip of your fingers or your pen get back to you some day and affect your life. What would you say, what would you write, what would you type?
My writing to you will be pretty defined in certain area that will bring very positive effect. This is very natural, but my free imagination will be a little limited – I can’t find more proper word, there should be better word, but I just can’t grab one.
Lots of words to say, but I have to simplify the plot because I only want nice and positive stuffs like many other people do.
Simple plot goes like this. No, this doesn’t even require any explanation.
That is it for today. It was really nice to write to you and see you soon.
This isn’t a business letter to me and I don’t know how I have to end.
Maybe,
sincerely yours,
Mira – Is it OK? Bye..
Date: Sat, 5 Jul 2008 10:06:50 +0000
Hi, Larry and Sergey,
It’s been a long time since I wrote to you.
Attached file is the draft of my recent writing which requires lots of correction.
It’s going to take really long time to complete this.
How’s it going?
I believe both of you are doing wonderful job as you’ve always been..
Have a nice weekend!
Bye.
Mira
Date: Tue, 15 Jul 2008 01:04:51 +0000
As I mentioned few months ago, nothing really changes
and I’m going to stick to every detail in my wish book.
I told you that things would be difficult for me until next April,
I mean just staying home alone until next April will be really difficult and harsh for me,
but there is nothing I or you can do about this situation.
I’m just upset about this situation, because this isn’t my fault.
Complaining all the time, yelling, getting furious about nothing and other behavior are just
symptom of depression. So, please understand me and you should understand me on this situation.
As I told you, nothing is going to change and I will stick to everything in my book.
I think I need something to relieve my stress, but I can’t find anything around me.
I can’t travel right now. I just don’t know how to relieve this stress. I can’t control myself these days.
It’s too hot and humid and makes me feel awful.
Please suppose that you take all the cameras off me and I don’t exist in front of you, which is my wish at the moment.
Just ignore things that are not related to anything in the book until next April.
This is the best option for me, unfortunately.
Date: Tue, 15 Jul 2008 20:03:57 +0000:MSG to Bill
I want to be proposed. Am I that bad?
Date: Fri, 18 Jul 2008 20:14:55 +0000MSG to everybody
I’m taking a month off from every relationship. I’m a little exhausted.
Date: Tue, 29 Jul 2008 09:49:57 +0000
I really like you. I want to take some time to make any serious decision until next Arpil.
I really feel exhausted.
Love you.
Date: Sat, 9 Aug 2008 06:25:18 +0000
I don’t know any dirty word.
When I meet real Bill and Bill Gates gives me the amount I offered, then I can show you.
I like you and love you and I think you are very sexy..
And these days, I start to get curious about your potency, I mean,
I don’t know how to put it.
From some article written in 1999, you also mentioned your father again and again.
The year 1999 was the very first year that I felt orgasm and I was 24 in American age,
but you still mentioned your father, giving me this impression that that 30-40 minutes of sex isn’t enough for you back then.
And some other messages provoke my curiosity about your the other hair thing.
This is getting really ridiculous.
Besides, I do have tons of questions about you and your everything.
You are really funny – in a good way – person with money, power, privacy, freedom and dignity, which are things that I’m longing for.
Have a good day.
Love you.
Mira
Date: Sun, 10 Aug 2008 06:37:30 +0000
5 conditions
1. Cure me
2. Don’t take it back
3. $700M cash
4. Me set the date
5. After IT, medical check-up for precautionary measure
Date: Mon, 11 Aug 2008 05:06:19 +0000
If I draw a line, what do I get?
What I need right now is a lot of cash.
Good afternoon!
Every time I try to send a letter to you, I get really nervous and I don’t know why..
However, people keep telling me not to be afraid of making mistake,
so I’m going to write to you really casually.
Even if I make so many mistakes, please understand me.
I decide to go to N.Y. this fall for both academic and business purpose..
And one of my favorite projects, chasing billionaires. Why?
I don’t know. Just for fun.
I think I can meet you really soon.
See you then.
Mira
Good morning..
Someone call me arrogant because I rejected your suggestion in a word.
Now, I am afraid that something really good – I decide to change every negative word to positive one, so interpret this carefully – might happen to me.
When it comes to making love or having steady relationship with a person you love, things should be mutual.
I like you, I love you, I respect you and I admire you and considering I’ve never repected someone in my life, this is really big compliment and something really huge to me.
I just wonder why people can’t just wait for me until I have some time, like 2 years of my life to cleanse my inside and my life and pull myself together and stay me and why they just keep focusing on me having sex with someone.
If I say yes and sweeten up my offer, what comes next?
You and me, I mean, real Bill Gates and I actually meet and have those kind of activities(?) under the conditions that I specified? Right now? Or, tomorrow?
I get dizzy again.. Let me write to again.
Bye, now.
Mira
Date: Tue, 12 Aug 2008 18:00:28 +0000
Good afternoon.
I’m back and I checked your email.
However, the amount you offer is quite different from what I offered to you.
Considering 0.2 billion regular viewership, many investment issues and the amount and scale of funding, the amount I offered seems reasonable.
Why?
Actually, this isn’t about why. This is about how.
You and I know how. I don’t really have to tell you all the details.
Let me take an example – I’m getting embarrassed again, but biz is biz..
No. We both know what I really try to point out.
You can just assume what I mean, which is what I’m trying to say.
Please just keep focusing on pending issues around you and other business and investment opportunities.
This seems far away from romantic gesture, however, the reality we are facing appears exactly like this, which makes me really sad.
Under normal circumstances, I would approach you over this issue like this.
Bill, I was impressed with your public appearance. You’ve been just perfection.
In particular, around 1996, you just had the image and the picture of what all women wanted, sweetness, successful career, charmness, sexiness and among other things, billionaire genious.
Your sweetness comes to me like milk-chocolate-colored luxury.
I’ve been Chanelizing you and Diorizing you and getting true color of luxury out of you for several months.
You know, stuff like this. Keep mumbling about things that have been in my mind.
In short, please reconsider your number.
Love you.
Have a good day.
Mira
Hi.
You don’t have to be sorry.
I am just the trail of an old-fashioned practice and old generation’s mistakes.
The most important thing is mistakes and old-fashioned negative practices should be fixed
and in order to fix them, the people who practiced them should realize what was wrong and what they have to change and fix them.
I cried out for 7 years on their mistakes and bad practices based on common sense and generally accepted principle,
however, all I got from them is extremely painful torture and their unchanged attitude with which they try to force me to do what they have been dong in their old-fashioned wrong and negative way.
You are young and you are new in every respect.
Being young and new represents the possibility to change and innovate things around us
and the potential to make things way better and way innovative..
You don’t really have to be sorry.
I really want to have faith in both of you and I really want to have faith in what you can do in the near future with your power,
strength and youth.
Their only justification and defense is doing the good things, however, it is too weak when we think about the way they chose
to achieve that goal.
Domestic violence, child sex, child abuse, underaged porn and unapproved and unpreagreed porngraphy surely cannot represent good deeds.
There are plenty of better way, constructive way, and positive way to help people and make the world a better place to live…
Wrong practices should be fixed.
I want my dignity that I’ve never had in my life from the first moment I was born, and that grown-ups carelessly dumped for their commercial purpose.
Have a good day.
Love you….
Mira
Good morning.
Let me go over my terms once again.
1.. Cure me.
2…. Do not take it back.
3. US$700M, cash, perpetual owenership and liberty of disposal 100% guaranteed
4. Proper medical check-up after IT
5.. I set the date.
6. Performance/satisfaction never guaranteed
7. The partner should be you, Bill Gates.
How do we meet?
You are going to show up in front of me, tomorrow?
???????
Mira
Hi.
You don’t have to be sorry.
I am just the trail of an old-fashioned practice and old generation’s mistakes.
The most important thing is mistakes and old-fashioned negative practices should be fixed
and in order to fix them, the people who practiced them should realize what was wrong and what they have to change and fix them..
I cried out for 7 years on their mistakes and bad practices based on common sense and generally accepted principle,
however, all I got from them is extremely painful torture and their unchanged attitude with which they try to force me to do what they have been dong in their old-fashioned wrong and negative way.
You are young and you are new in every respect.
Being young and new represents the possibility to change and innovative things around us
and the potential to make things way better and way innovative.
You don’t really have to be sorry.
I really want to have faith in both of you and I really want to have faith in what you can do in the near future with your power,
strength and youth.
Their only justification and defense is doing the good things, however, it is too weak when we think about the way they chose
to achieve that goal.
Domestic violence, child sex, child abuse, underage porn and unapproved and unpreagreed porngraphy surely cannot represent good deeds.
There are plenty of better way, constructive way, and positive way to help people and make the world a better place to live.
Wrong practices should be fixed.
I want my dignity that I’ve never had in my life from the first moment I was born, and that grown-ups carelessly dumped for their commercial purpose.
Have a good day.
Love you.
Mira
Hi.
It’s been quit a week, having a fight with Bill with all the negotiations and cash deals.
(I’m not blaming Bill, please don’t hurt him or fight with him^^ cuz he’s still my lover no matter what.)
It’s just a birthday of someone.
A day like this shouldn’t be the subject of a stupid game.
I just don’t know why people can’t see that…
Anyway, my schedule survived. Please congratulate me.
This is really hard.
Today, Google represents search and a new type of ad biz to the Internet users, realizing
the democracy of information sharing and establishing its name as the pronoun of the Internet search.
Google is what you are and who you are as well as the future of the new type of business.
I’m really happy to witness Google growing in really healthy and sound way, setting another standard of
corporate ethics.
“Don’t be evil”
Quit a short message, but very strong expression.
I really hope you could and would stick to this principle and propagandize its spirit across the industry.
As I mentioned on Larry’s birthday, I hope this Internet market could be quadrupled really soon,
making you, Larry and the Internet users all over the world happy and this quadrupled market will
soon bring you quadrupled profit and cash. I hope you could make very innovative and productive entrepreneurial attempts
which can not only benefit you, two cute billionaires and Google, but also the society and the world.
Happy birthday to you!
Sincerely,
Mira
Good morning.
You’ve been so impatient for a week.
Why can’t you just wait?
Your answer is
a) simply jealous
b) Bill just wanted to win this time
If a), I’m flattered, but I explained everything from the beginning.
I told you about the system.
If b), you are so mean and I’m still upset about it.
As for the thing you’ve been doing from March right to this morning,
I’ve felt offended as I’ve explained to you several times.
I just want romantic relationship.
Please don’t do that. This doesn’t mean I don’t like you.
But I hate it. I just hate it.
I’m just worried about my physical condition and psychologically, the thing you want to happen
isn’t good for our relationship.
Please consider this.
All I want is very romantic, sound and pleasant relationship that can last forever.
Please, please consider this really carefully.
Have a good day.
Love you.
Mira
Hi.
You must be really busy debugging this Chrome…
-I don’t mean this isn’t perfect, this is beta version.
This is why I mention this. Don’t hate me..-
I like this a lot.. Cute just like you.
Thank you for your cash gift today.
These days, I’m so tired and I don’t think of anything.
You know what I mean. People playing with me really makes me tired and sick.
I just don’t understand why they can’t just leave me alone.
I wish you good luck on this browser as this market grows bigger and bigger.
Have a good day.
Love,
Mira
Sent: Thursday, September 4, 2008 1:07:58 PM
Subject: Fw: I felt it!
FOCUS ON PURPOSES & OPTIONS!
THEY ALL HAVE PURPOSES AND OPTIONS AND THEY WANT YOU TO GO BY THE RULE.
ANYHOW, THEY ARE IN AND THEY ALL GET WHAT THEY WANT IN THE END.
IT IS JUST MATTER OF WHETHER IT IS A LITTLE SMALLER OR A LITTLE BIGGER.
EMOTION NEVER HELPS!
STICK TO YOUR PLAN!!!
What Bill did wrong.
- Remotely controlled sexual approach
Bill’s goal
1. Another cheap porn, or
2. Simulation before we have real sex on my terms, or
3. Attempt to obtain priority, or
4. To draw my attention to make me any kind of remark or action to complete the blockbuster
Mira’s opinion
If 1, Bill had better find another media to promote his corporation and philanthropy.
If 2, not pleasant, unacceptable, but understandable to certain degree.. Hope he doesn’t do this to me again. Really.
If 3, he can’t obtain priority with this kind of approach. I need cash guarantee from him first because of our history.
If 4, he succeeded this time, however, nothing like this will happen from now on.
What Mira wants
Bill to stop this approach
If 1, to end relationship with him. It’s hopeless.
If 2, Bill to stop this approach and wait until I say I’m ready.
If 3, really firm cash guarantee from Bill as mentioned above.
If 4, as mentioned above.
Hi.
I’m not enjoying anything. You know what I mean.
I’m just me. What they are doing doesn’t affect me at all.
Let me suggest one thing.
As I said to you, I’m trying to start up my own business
and open 2 web sites. One is for local sales and another is for global sales..
For the local web site, there are many ways to promote this,
however, for the global one, I think I should take way more steps to promote it.
So, Google is famous for Internet ad and I’m thinking what if Google uses its
worldwide network and provides integrated ads service for this type of business..
I mean you can divide your ad sector in 2 categories, one for local business owners
and another for global business owners..
You can provide global ad package to a business owner like me.
There are thousands (or more) of business owners who are trying to
expand their market to other countries..
If Google provides this service, the impact is going to be huge.
True win-win situation.
I was just thinking while they were doing this stupid thing.
This is really [-------]. You guess. I don’t think I should use any negative word.
Have a good day.
Love,
Mira
Good evening.
It was too sudden, so I reacted that way..
Don’t you hate me?
We had a big fight and I said those terrible things to you.
Do you feel OK about what I said to you?
I don’t know what to say.
I think I need proof..
I really don’t know what to say.
It feels like I’m flying..
I just can’t find any word.
Feel good, of course.
I need proof.
I can’t think of anything now.
Have a good day.
Mira
Good afternoon.
Could you wait until we really get married?
I mean I don’t really have any energy to make love with you.
Could you please wait at least until I say I’m ready?
This is really hard for me to manage both work and what you are doing these days.
I’m not ready yet.
Too tired and sometimes, it really hurts.
I’m too tired. Please, please wait until we get married.
I feel really terrible. This doesn’t mean that I hate you.
Can we save this for our special night?
Mira
Hi.
I was just depressed and it was not because of you.
I hope there be no misunderstanding.
I’m really happy because it feels like I finally find my home that I’ve been looking for.
I don’t think I can forget the moment I felt something really huge and powerful
coming from the bottom of my heart for the rest of my life and I can ever find and respect
anyone like this for the rest of my life.
I still don’t know what to say, but I usually define the success of marriage like this.
Right before I die, I just look around my children and my spouse,
saying it’s been really honored to have you as my family
and I’ve had really fun and pleasant time with you
and even if I am not here with you, my soul will be floating somewhere, treasuring every moment
we’ve spent together.
Target number of year: 50 years
You are with me and I’m really happy..
I love you..
Mira
Hi.
I feel really awful.
I can’t take it any more.
If you take our marriage and relationship seriously,
please wait until April, 2009.
Let me contact you then.
Till then, have a good life.
I’ve had enough.
I like you and love you and respect you
and still want to marry you and become Mrs… Gates.
But, I hate what you are doing to me..
Just wait until I get back to you.
This doesn’t mean separation or something.
We haven’t met yet.
I really need time..
I’m not pushing you away.
This is too hard for me to take.
See you in April…
Mira
Sent: Friday, September 12, 2008 9:50:15 PM
Subject: Re: I felt it!
I want to stay me at least until April, 2009.
Sent: Saturday, September 13, 2008 11:58:00 AM
Subject: Re: I felt it!
Bill and I are engaged.
1. Priority belongs to Google until Bill and Mira are legally bound.
2. Google and I will remain as friends as long as I live.
3. Google’s search market will be perfectly secured as long as I live.
4. I wish Google good luck on building Google Ads Empire and I’m sure that they will do pretty good job.
Everything is clear.
Bill is my fiance, and Sergey and Larry are my friends.
Things that Mira has to think during 7 months vacation
1. Bill
2. Kid(s)
3. Family & relatives
4. Friends & acquaintances
5. Foundation(s)
6. Microsoft
7. PB & asset management & investment
8. Mira
9.. Others
Feels good. Let’s enjoy this feeling.
Feels like I got big prize or something.
This wasn’t one of my options, but undeniably honorable option.
Let’s just call this historical event and celebrate this moment.
Love me.
1. While I’m playing this game and doing this show, I don’t want to hurt anybody.
2. I want to benefit anybody who participates in this game and be fair to everybody.
3. Yeah, I want to achieve and get what I’ve been longing for.
As far as I know, everybody around me is well educated, smart and reasonable..
All the mistakes we’ve made and wrong convention which has been unintentionally repeated should be fixed.
We should be really shameful about wrong things that we’ve been doing.
You are all smart people and you know how to fix them and what is the best alternative.
The energy inside each of you and the intelligence and brilliance you take for granted can be used
for good purposes in positive, legal and more productive way.
I’ve been pointing out those mistakes for 5 years.
Mistakes shouldn’t be repeated!
Good morning.
You surely made me love you.
I still feel insecure.
I hope I could throw myself into this sweet, but rather confusing feeling for you.
Strange thing is when I was 16, 18 and 19, I threw myself into one trillionth of this feeling.
Was I that brave or was it just curiosity?
This 34-year-old vulnerable and dubious me is still hesitating
to honestly embrace all the moves and efforts Bill’s been making.
Bear, bird, stupid, Mozilla…. These are my nicknames and whoever named them to me is really smart.
Frankly speaking, I’m crazy about you. This is just more than love.
I don’t know what to do and sometimes, I can’t pull myself together.
You are really good.
Have a good day.
Mira
From the day REAL Bill Gates and I really, actually, physically – no cyber sex involved – and legally get married till the day Bill and I die,
I will pour my passion and affection that has been deep inside of me and couldn’t be spoken out into every moment of our lives in my own way, a really creative way.
I’m here, imagining each moment we are going to share,
and I’m really sure that we should have fun, I mean geeky fun.
I think I really love Bill Gates.
One question! How many percentage does the hormone, oxytocin, take up our relationship?
Not many. There should be something more than that.
This is more like hallucination that makes me feel bonded to him.
I think I need something more than that. This surely makes me feel better, but hallucination and illusion doesn’t play a main role in our relationship. There should be trust and firm affection and belief that can lead our relationship to somewhere more “some adjective”. I really need more adjectives.
It is really sad that I have to manage my wide-open heart toward someone.
When I was 16, 18 and 19, I bravely expressed all the feelings and affection I had.
Now, I hide myself like this and I am afraid of being honest about my feelings
and openly admitting that the hormone is the part of love and there are not many chances to have this kind of perfect moment and feeling in one’s life.
Why am I hesitating?
What am I afraid of?
Don’t know. Totally clueless.
Feeling guilty.
Which has been the most common feeling that I’ve had in my entire life.
While my parents had a fight, or when me and one of my family members or friends or ex had a fight,
I got really furious, saying really awful things in front of them and regretting, regretting, regretting…
The bottom line is I don’t want to get hurt as much as I don’t want to hurt someone.
I need time to completely manage my affection to love you even more bravely and to embrace everything you cherish.
Please don’t be impatient!
This isn’t just about emotion. This system has this stupid rule of game.
What I say and what I do eventually affect what is going to come next, bringing out results and consequences that you and I have to take responsibility for. Let’s look ahead, far, far ahead.
How are you?
Happy birthday to Google!
Yesterday, I picked cake for Google’s birthday and
put it in your photo folder.
I just attached that photo. Please enjoy.
I’m too tired to think of any word or sentence.
Please understand me.
I’m really happy to see Google grow, expanding its business
both vertically and horizontally.
I wish I could hear really big news on Google on its next birthday!
Have a good day!
Mira
Good evening.
How was your day?
Thanks to your active and initiative moves,
I completely got attached to you.
I feel really comfortable when I’m with you
and everytime I listen to your voice, I feel like I’m at home
after having wandering around so many years.
Thank you very much for respecting what I said to you in this morning.
The magic of few thumpings and tappings surely cured ^%*^&*~ thing.
For me, you are more like God. – My ‘Oh my Gods’ may be upset when they hear this.
Sorry that I was being rude last night.
Without this thumping and tapping thing, we don’t have anything to quarrel over.
This means if we are together, there will be fun, fun, fun and fun moment all the time.
Good night! Dream of me, ‘please’ version of me….
Truly yours,
Mira
P.S. No baby around me, please. I mean, around the system, even in photos.
Hi….
Please stop this.
Can’t you just see how much I’m sufferring from what you’ve been doing to me?
This is just a joke to you.
But, not to me.
Do you even love me?
Do you even care about me?
You started everything first.
Please stop this.
You have enough power to control everything around me.
Please stop this.
I can’t tolerate it any more.
This is too much.
I’m not your toy….
I’m not anybody’s toy….
Please, please stop doing this to me.
I’m a human just like you!
I have a life to live.
I want really fun, pleasant, healthy and fully functional life just like everybody in the world..
This is just another success to you. I mean you just triggered me to write to you.
Don’t do this to me…
I AM A HUMAN JUST LIKE YOU, WHICH IS THE FACT THAT YOU REALLY DON’T WANT TO ADMIT, BUT I AM. I REALLY AM.
Please consider this matter seriously.
I do want to have really pleasant and everlasting relationship with you.
I don’t want to ruin anything. So, please, please take this matter seriously…
I AM A HUMAN!
MIRA
I REALLY DON’T WANT TO FIGHT WITH ANYBODY!
WHY CAN’T YOU REPECT WHAT I SAY?
JUST GIVE ME MORE TIME, ONLY FOR 6 MONTHS.
WHY CAN’T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE?
I feel okay.
Completely centered..
I’m very reasonable and rational and I’m safe..
I really want to stay like this…. I really want to stay me, the one that I used to be.
My passion tells me to follow this enormous feeling and furiously deep affection
that I’ve never felt before, but I don’t want to lose myself again.
I’m questioning whether this is right or not.
I’m not sure, but at the moment, I just want to be myself.
What is the right thing to do?
When it comes to attachment, I am the world worst person to manage all the feelings and
express myself and passion in an appropriate way..
In front of a computer monitor, I can be a very strong person and control just about everything,
but in real life and real situation, I’m just a 3 or 4 year-old girl.
All I can do is just yelling, swearing and eventually ending up crying.
Very immature..
Finally, I become able to control my passion,
but thinking that this is the last time that I can have this kind of feeling in my life,
I just want to capture this moment and follow my passion and emotion.
However, my ration tells me not to.
Now, I have two versions of me..
One is following my passion and another is following my ration.
The former is like exposing 3-year-old me to the world
and the latter will be really convenient and very neat..
I still want to follow my passion, but I want to act like an adult.
A really big question mark appeared above my head again..
When this question mark becomes a really huge exclamation mark,
I’ll be completely safe enough to throw myself into this DISCOVERY CHANNEL version of love story.
My friend, I mean my genderless imaginary friend, Franny – I named her[him] like this -
is telling me “NOT YET!”.
I have to wait, because she[he] is always right..
Hello.
I know your intention.
What I really wanted was well-controlled emotion
to have better life with you.
However, there is misunderstanding between us.
Please take a littel time to be in my position.
If we start our real relationship, I have to understand everything you’ve done to me.
(Your answer will be very simple. You are going to tell me to go away
and you’re going to just stay there, doing this thumping and tapping things
and still sexually, physically and psychologically abusing me without feeling guilty about doing
this kind of thing to a human.)
You and my father have few things in common.
Both of you have done something terrible to me, establishing this scary idea and convention of
stamping down my dignity and commercializing child sex without any feeling of guilt,
still exploiting every sexuality that I have even though I got sick because both of you’ve done to me
for so many years and both of you still feel this is just right for everybody.
I know what you want to tell me right now.
“You liked it anyway.. We made you satisfied.. Who’s going to give you that kind of heavenly satisfying
moment to a girl like you. You should thank to me.”
This is the same old thing that I’ve told you repeatedly for 7 years.
My father did this to me just because I was born as his daughter and he considered me as his property..
And now, you are doing this to me because there was no father to me to protect me from others doing this kind of thing to me and there has been a father who took this big initiative to experimentally exploit his own daughter’s sexuality, announcing new era of the commercialization of women’s sexuality.
I know what you are thinking. My poor writing is just another tool to bring you money and attention.
And now, you succeeded again. And now, I got hurt again by exactly the same kind of person who called himself my father and took exploiting my sexuality for granted……….
No matter how loudly I scream to the world, it is no use…. Because I was born like this.
I think this is going to be my last letter to you and this is going to be the last feeling that I can have
toward a human.
At last, I killed a human inside of me.
Thank you very much for doing this to me…
Thing is they still want to be loved.
Why?????????????
How????????????????????
Just take a second to be in my position.
They still want true affection from me.
I’m not that strong. I’m a human.
I wish I could fool myself and just focus on money…
I wish I could persuade me to lower down my expectation on true heart and affection
and belief in innocent love.
Money, fame, reputation and power.
These are what I can get from them, exactly put, from this system.
If I am able to focus on these things and I am smart enough to compromise,
I can simply take the shortcut. I can lie to him.
I can lie to them.. Because he is the shortcut.
I still have this big question mark…
How can they still want true affection from me??????????
How can they expect me to have feelings for them????????????????
If they were in my shoe, can they??????????????????????????????????????????????????
Their answers are simple.
They are going to just laugh at me first and tell me to keep thinking about those question marks above your head…
Let’s move on, you stupid!
Bill promised me to get me Louis Vuitton 2009 S/S collection +cash gift..
I watched his video clip run on Chalie Rose Show. In this show, he talked about his usual issues like software, computing environment and his biz-related issues, including other issues like health..
[THIS MESSAGE WASN'T WRITTEN FOR THE PURPOSE OF PUBLICATION.
PLEASE RESPECT MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH AND DO NOT APPLY THE RULE OF GAME.
I JUST WANT TO EXPRESS SOMETHING, I JUST WANT TO SPEAK OUTLOUD SOMETIMES.]
My friends, Larry and Sergey, invented Google Goggles
which prevents people from sending mail while they are intoxicated.
Really interesting people…..
I got really upset after I calculated my total income of this year as of October.
The number really embarrassed me..
I’m 34 and I’ve been able to make only about US$1000 a month.
I don’t even need a university diploma to make this kind of money.
Why do I even need this system?
Why do I even need these group of people around me watching what I’m doning 24 hours a day?
What are we doing now?
Really, really embarrassing…
I know they are focusing on this rescue thing that I mentioned 2 years ago.
But, when I mentioned it, I didn’t really mean that I should be in this kind of financially difficult situation or something.
I can be rescued even when I’m in a perfect situation. The rescue that I mentioned has a little different meaning
from what they understood conventionally…
I meant it as a symbolic meaning or representation implying something not only financial, but also spiritual and emotional.
I really don’t have to be in this type of shabby situation.
I think I should be really careful when I mention something to these people.
I know you people have worked really hard to simulate this historical rescue story
and I’m grateful for all your collaborative work.
However, even when I have to be rescued by someone who is really powerful, intelligent and brilliant,
I want to be in a perfect situation and good shape. I don’t want to be sympathized by anyone.
In short, in the 21st century’s version of a rescue story, the rescued should have other perfect options
without having to be sympathized by the rescuer.
This way, both parties can have sound and pleasant relationship
as long as they are together. This is reality.
I learned everything from fairy tales that I have read since I was a kid, which gave this fantasy of being rescued by the modern version of perfect prince.
At my age of 34, I have faced a reality and I have gone through real and cold experiences
that I couldn’t handle properly.. I had to amend this rescue story in my mind.
I want to be in control no matter what, in order to have much more fabulous life with the rescuer than ones that have been described in many romance stories and films.
-A little chat with myself-
[THIS MESSAGE IS WRITTEN BASED UPON THE GUARANTEE THAT NO RULE OF GAME SHALL BE APPLIED AND MY RIGHT TO FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION SHALL BE PERFECTLY AND PERPETUALLY SECURED AND THIS WRITING ACTIVITY SHALL NOT HAVE ANY ADVERSE EFFECT ON ANYTHING AROUND ME, SUCH AS MY FINANCIAL STATUS, SURROUNDINGS, RELATIONSHIP, MY FUTURE AND OTHERS.]
I kept my diary on a diary website for more than 2 years,
but I couldn’t sign in it and I couldn’t even have any access to it in any way.
What kind of system is this?
I wrote this because I had this enormous, nuclear-fusion-like feeling and I wanted to express my feeling in any way…………………
This is just my private note and my privacy should be perfectly secured.
This is my writing, so all the rights shall belong to me even after I die.
I have all the rights to access and keep this writing and no one can infringe my right and no one can interfere, intrude or adversely use its contents.
This writing comes solely from my delicate and sensitive emotion, which is very inconsistent, volatile and inevitably subjective.
I’m not making a political speech.. I’m not writing a newspaper article.
I’m just translating my feelings and images coming from my heart into words.
No one has any right to criticize it and play a game with it.
Besides, this isn’t my career. At this moment, this is a sort of my hobby, which shouldn’t negatively affect my real career.
Like many types of art, writing is a way of expressing what a human has in his/her mind, heart or soul.
I’m a human. I know I have a right to write and express anything I want, but I still know there has been consequences..
This type of very private expression has always been treated as a privacy issue
and no one can ever have any right to invade the privacy without any exception.
I insist and hope this fact should apply to me.
Please guarantee my privacy and all the rights related to it
and please guarantee that no game of rule shall be applied even after I die.
I hope there is just one moment and just one space, at which I can be by myself
and freely express anything in my mind without having to think the rule of game and the consequences.
I know your defense. You people have all the power and money to provide me with reputation, power, money and fame. However, reputation, power, money and fame are one thing, freedom and privacy are another.
There should be some type of rule or device to protect this type of basic and fundamental right.
This is 21st century. Sound stupid? Know what I’m going to say?
Yeah, everybody knows what I’m going to mention.
Things changed and they are going to change..
I just keep talking about the same thing repeatedly.
Is this because I’m stupid and I don’t know what kind of privilege is ahead of me?
You are insisting on implementing public benefit with this media and me.
What is public benefit?
What is the basis of public benefit?
Here is a word that you don’t want to hear.
Implementing basic and fundamental human rights……
The human right to enjoy a humane life as a human.
What constitutes a humane life?
What is the basis of a humane life?
Physical and psychological safety and security..
In which way can we implement these elements?
What constitutes these elements?
The last two questions are the qestions that you want me to give answers.
However, I’m here, in front of you, still questioning what happens to my physical and psychological safety and security.
Why do I have to keep mouth shut all the time and suppress every feeling and emotion all the time
and why do I have to tolerate your irrational and unreasonable treatment which have been done to me
under the BIG JUSTIFICATION of public benefit?
If I can’t solve my own problem, can I even solve others’, I mean all of the mankind?
Can reputation, power, money and fame you are offering be answers to these questions?
I want your reasonable solution and alternative to this issue.
When I feel safe and secured, I can make people around me feel safe and secured..
I’m not a teenage girl who I used to be, complaining about everything without providing any alternative.
This is the voice of my reason.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE GUARANTEE MY PARTIAL PRIVACY, PHYSICAL AND PSYCHOLOGICAL SECURITY AND SAFETY AND FREEDOM..
Every time I raise this issue, you are always threatening me, talking about economical or physical something, something. As you can see, I’m not a prisoner. I’m a human who was accidentally born in this incomplete system. Everybody knows that this incompleteness should be completed and there should be continuous debate to complete this system.
Everybody can see this. But there has been this authoritarianism and male chauvinism which blocked the way to solve this issue.
I upset you people again. I’m not criticizing you. I’m pointing out the reality in front of us. I’m not talking to one person. I’m talking to this system..
What kind of effect does this authoritarianism and male chauvinism have on the society?
I’m a Korean. As you can see. For these 2 years, I’ve checked American society and found big difference between these two countries.
Korea is called the country of courteous people in the East and like many other Asian countries, most Korean have this notion of the predominance of men over women.
What has this kind of notion and concept brought to this country?
Answer was simple.
A lot of yes men who just follow orders.
And that many of women who just follow their orders.
You know what comes next.
You understand what I’m trying to say, because you are smart people and well-educated.
-A little chat with myself::2-
[THIS MESSAGE WAS WRITTEN BASED UPON THE GUARANTEE THAT NO RULE OF GAME SHALL BE APPLIED AND MY RIGHT TO FREEDOM OF EXPRESSION SHALL BE PERFECTLY AND PERPETUALLY SECURED AND THIS WRITING ACTIVITY SHALL NOT HAVE ANY ADVERSE EFFECT ON ANYTHING AROUND ME, SUCH AS MY FINANCIAL STATUS, SURROUNDINGS, RELATIONSHIP, MY FUTURE AND OTHERS.]
Koreans are diligent, passionate and smart.
When it comes to introducing something like technology, methology, systems and others to our society and economic system, we can complete this at a remarkably rapid pace.
This means we have that much of potential. However, authoritarianism made half of the nation’s potential fall asleep and male chauvinism made half of the rest half fall asleep.
Let’s do the math here. How much of the potential of the entire nation is sleeping now?
You know what I’m trying to say.
We do need authority. Sure, we do.
For what purpose do we need authority? In order to keep our social order, only to the minimum degree, we need authority.
As for male chauvinism, the ideal situation is where people are asking each other what male chauvinism is.
Let’s go back to my problem.
You want me to submit to authority. For what purpose?
I’m still questioning this. Am I being out of order?
I’m just pointing out what has been done in a wrong way.
As for male chauvinism, I keep insisting on making our relationship sound, pleasant and everlasting friendship.
I am still questioning…. again and again.
A big question mark above my head still remains as a question mark.
When I first watched Bill Gates’ video clip on his last day at work, I was really surprised.
I was surprised at how bad he was at singing.
I was surprised at how awful he was at acting.
Most of all, I was surprised and amazed at the fact that he was making himself a joke to the public,
even though he is at the top of the country, even at the top of the world.
In Korea, we cannot even imagine this kind of situation.
We haven’t seen this kind of scene. This was a shock to me.
And I felt that this kind of way of thinking had been making American society stay far ahead.
In short, when you have to exercise authority,
you have to ask yourself whether this is necessary to keep our social order.
You shouldn’t exercise authority just to suppress people and invade their right.
This is 21st century.
We need newer and more innovative way of thinking..
Bill promised me to give me US$1,714,557,788 in cash.
Bill and I had sex 6 times, watching his video clip. Of course, I couldn’t understand anything.
Bill told me to transform my memories into something imaginative.
I watched his video clip like 2006 RSA conference keynote and NVTC Titans Breakfast taped on Mar. 18, 2008 which is my recent favorite cuz he looks so sexy. Both video clips are about his usual issues.
I can meet people only when I feel secure and safe.
Everybody does.
This is what I wanted to say.
I want to be a pleasant person all the time.
I want to make myself pleasant and make others pleasant all the time.
I’m not a perfectionist, but as for relationship, my principle is that things should be fun and pleasant.
When I feel secure, safe and proud of myself, I can treat people right
and make them feel exactly the same way.
If I feel insecure, I usually go hysterical and out of control
and make people around me feel confused and drive them crazy.
Please make me feel secure all the time, so I can please you and flirt with you all the time.
You like that voice. I can make that voice only when I feel really secure.
I really want a pleasant relationship with people. People means Bill Gates, Larry and Sergey.
Bill Gates and Mira are not married yet. If I’m not with this system, this kind of sexual relationship may be okay. Still inhumane.
However, we are in this special situation, there should be guarantees and agreements between us until Mira and Bill Gates actually, legally, lawfully and officially get married.
1. As I mentioned, there should be a cash guarantee, which you already promised to give me on Oct. 31, 2008 at an amount of US$1,714,557,788 in cash.
2. Proper recovery process, enhancement, treatment, food supplement and others should be provided to me right after Bill Gates have virtual sex with me. In particular, there shouldn’t be any problem related to urination, of which time and state should be perfect and normal.
3. This virtual sex shouldn’t adversely affect my personal life, such as my personal plan, business, current career, academic achievement, relationship with other people, financial status, income, physical and psychological state and others.
4. Bill Gates must guarantee that Mira should be in perfect control until Bill Gates and Mira get married. “Pefect control” means physically, psychologically, financially stable status.
5. The time of the virtual sex shall be limited to once a week.
I feel attached to you. As I told you, it feels like we’ve lived together for 3 or 4 years.
I can sleep sound when I hear your voice from your webcast before I fall asleep.
I feel a little stable when your people do this to me if I have your video clip played right beside me.
Sounds stupid, but it is true. I can’t help it.
I really love you, but I need security. Please make me feel secure.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Hi.
How have you been?
It must be about 10:00 a.m. there.
Good morning!
In spite of your sincere advice, I’m sending you an email while I’m not intoxicated.
This game has been tough for you since April.
I didn’t mean to put you in that difficult situation and give you hard time.
However, it’s been tough for me to control myself since April.
It felt good, but I’m still confused.
I hope this game doesn’t hurt anybody and could benefit everybody while they are in.
In short, I wish everybody’s number could go up.
Have a nice day!
Truly yours,
Mira
Good evening!
How was your day?
I just had lunch.
We had quite a long talk in this morning..
I just hope everything goes well between me and Google for good..
I envy you your privacy so much today.
Last year, I made this concept of a “sanctuary”,
which means a place where I can be by myself, both physically and psychologically.
I made this because I was harassed by my ex and other family member when I lived with him.
I’m living by myself. I’m absolutely alone and
I want my privacy as long as I’m alive just like other people.
I’m the only one who can have access to this place wherever it is
and I’m the only one who can have access to my spiritual sanctuary in my brain.
This is generally accepted common sense and I want this to apply to me as long as I’m alive.
Good night.
Truly yours,
Mira
Hello.
I just had lunch while watching your video clip.
I think I overcome my own worst enemy and my brain functions perfectly well at the moment.
Good news for both of us. And this means if there has been no enemy like this,
my brain could have functioned far better than it has done so far.
Now I’m wondering what kind of compensation I can get from this system.
Your people are doing their usual thing again and I’m sitting in front of my keyboard, having two versions of me as I explained to you. One is a romance version and another is a reality version.
Let’s try two versions at the same time today.
Bill, I collected your prettiest and sexiest pictures from all the websites
and opened one of them and had a talk with you.
While we are having a talk, we also had virtual sex.
I wish we were together now and everytime I mention your name, I wish you, real Bill Gates, show up in my dream and enjoy a littel bit of romance together.
-Romance means talking. – My reality version interrupted abruptly…..
Bill, please take this virtual sex device away from me..
It gets in my way. If Bill Gates and I are together, it will be great for me.
However, this is really embarrassing and inhumane.
Please, don’t embarrass me and show me your humane side.
Last year, I made the concept of a “sanctuary”, which means a place where I can be by myself, absolutely isolated from other people. No one can have an access to this place but me.
This place can be wherever I’m….. At this moment, the place in which I’m living is my sanctuary.
And I’m the only one who can have an access to this place, I mean both physically and psychologically.
This is generally accepted common sense and everybody in the world is enjoying this type of privacy.
I’m one of everybody and enjoying this privacy and will enjoy this as long as I’m alive.
And Bill Gates will always support my thought because he really loves me and I really love him..
Bill, I’m seriously and furiously in love with you.
I really respect you. And please repect my thought.
I love you.
Good night.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Hi, again.
I hope I can say this to you on the day we meet in April, 2009.
I really wanted to meet you..
Thank you very much for taking care of me for last 6 months.
You’ve been so considerate and generous to me,
so I had really comfortable time during this warming up period.
I’ve spent every moment of this period thinking about how we could make our lives
funner and more pleasant.
And your affection and kindness has been of much help to me to manage both maintaining my original career
and drawing the whole picture of our future.
It’s been great honour for me to take this opportunity and have this time
to picture my future with Bill Gates.
Every time you showed your generous consideration and gentle affection,
I felt like I was in the heaven and you were right beside me, always giving me that pretty smile.
Although I have been completely isolated and by myself,
I wasn’t lonely at all, because I knew you had been with me all the time..
I was able to complete the whole picture of our future
as well as to successfuly launch my own business in N.Y. thanks to you
and I’ve enjoyed every moment, picturing our future.
You made me feel secure and safe all the time.
Thank you very much for your help… I love you.
Good night..
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Good morning.
I’m sending you this email to say hello.
You must be working at your foundation.
I read your article on your speech at Harvard.
You are going to love me anyway?
We have been having sex since last night.
I wish we were together, so I can merge my romance version into my reality version.
No math, no assumption, no judgment, but affection, security and trust.
What I want is to have a good life with real Bill Gates.
I’m still wide awake and this virtual sex keeps me from doing math and making any assumption and judgment….
I’m acting in my romance version. However, within 30 minutes, I’m going back to my reality version.
I’m still here, you’re far away in Seattle and I’m still feeling insecure.
You love me, don’t you? I want to hear these words from you in person.
I love you..
Have a good day.
Mira
Hi.
Thank you for getting my day job back.
Now I feel secure.
You’ve watched everything and you must have found out how worse I get when I’m out of job
and how insecure I feel.
When are you going to take your people away from me?
They’ve been doing this all day long.
When do I get the compensation that I mentioned.
Anyway, I called you again and you are here with me.
Although you are sleeping at this hour, your picture is with me, having this little talk.
Things that I mentioned yesterday weren’t about politics, but it is getting political,
which is the fact that I hate the most.
I’m going to support whatever you do, but I don’t like politics, so I have to make a little device
or system to support you without making myself get involved in politics.
I’m thinking about it.
I don’t have your phone number..
You can reach me by my phone number below any time you want.
I love you.
Good night…
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Good morning, here in Korea,
and good morning, there in Seattle..
I’m tired of repeatedly asking this question.
When are you going to take your people away from me?
When do I get the compensation and reward from you?
I’m really upset because your people keep playing with my body
and offend me.
This has become another type of sex comedy show, I think.
We are having sex and I feel really awful.
Still asking what I get from you for this.
This isn’t just emotional attachment,
but this is getting more like you are literally attached to my back all the time.
Please don’t do this to me for 6 months. It’s becoming 5 months….
When are you going to stop this?
I don’t think I can feel more attached to anybody than I do now.
We are glued to each other and we are the one.
So, please stop this.
This is really inhumane and unethical. You don’t have any excuse for this.
You can’t do this kind of thing to a human.
Can I just reach you or email you whenever I feel like to?
Why are you forcing me to do this to you?
Even if you don’t do this to me, I can reach and email you.
Please don’t push me like this.
This isn’t the right way to treat people.
You are a considerate person.
I know people think it’s funny and you keep objectifying me to draw their attention,
which makes me really sad and feel miserable.
If I were born like other ordinary women, I wouldn’t have had to be treated like this and
never had this kind of experience in my life.
Even if you are the world second richest person and have much power,
there is certain things you shouldn’t do.
When are you going to stop this?
I’m asking you again.
You and other people think it’s just a show, but this is my life and my body
as long as I’m alive.
I’m laughing because of the hormone and my indecisiveness.
However, I’m a human just like you as long as I’m alive.
I have kept pointing out the same thing, but nobody in this show ever listens to me.
If it’s just about money, why do I have to humiliate myself and helplessly let people do this to me?
What kind of privilege and compensation can you offer to me for this inhumane and unethical treatment to a human?
I just don’t know what to do.
And I start to think whether you truly care for me or not.
If I were you, I would have treated me right, thinking of getting married with me and our pleasant lives ahead.
Because we are soul mate and nothing can be a joke, including our sexuality…..
Is this cultural difference or what?
I’m questioning, as usual.
Have a good day..
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Hello..
I’m celebrating your birthday a day before your actual birthday.
Thank you very much for respecting my rights and
making my daily life easier and more convenient.
You are a perfect gentle man, as I am always saying to you.
I hope things around you go really well,
so that you can have a joyful life..
Have a good day and have fun on your birthday.
I love you.
Truly yours,
Mira
Hello.
Happy halloween!
Every halloween costume and party seems so interesting to me.
I want to join this halloween costume party some day, maybe in 2009…..
How are you doing?
Having fun?
I’m going out to get my ring back.
I’m going to call this ring my lucky ring from now on.
We are engaged, but my finger seems so lonely these days.
So, I think I should wear an alternative ring like this one..
Once again, I come around like this again.
Because of this virtual sex…..
I still hate this idea.
Please don’t do this to me.
If we are together, things like this will be great to me and I will probably enjoy it very much.
However, I keep telling you the same thing.
I feel really insecure and feel sexually offended..
I still like you, love you and respect you.
However, this is still unethical and inhumane.
I can’t accept this type of sexual harrassment.
Mr. Bill Gates is a perfect gentleman and
a very considerate, generous and even sexy billionaire.
Therefore, I believe that you will understand me and keep your promise, you know what I mean.
If I am with you, there will be no problem or issue like this one between us..
I don’t know what this is about.
Is this about the distance between us? Or what?
I’m sure that we are soul mate and MFO.
But, I don’t feel safe now.
Have a good day!
I love you.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Good evening.
I wish I were with you so that I wouldn’t have had to calcuate anything.
I could just focus on my feeling and affection if I’m with you.
I could be softer and free my feelings without having
to think what will come next if I say this or do this.
I wish we were together on top floor of my 20 story-building in N.Y.
without thumping, tapping or distracting sound effect around us.
I got my lucky ring and felt really good…..
And I’m dreaming of our wedding ceremony and Bill Gates putting my wedding on my finger.
Such a sweet dream.
Bill Gates will replace this thumping and tapping with his kisses and touching
after we get married.
Then I will feel secure and safe and I really don’t have to worry or think
about anything. I can be just myself and take everything just as it is.
However, I’m still in Korea and this is just tapping and thumping
and still feel really insecure and this thing that your people are doing isn’t right
and is unethical and inhumane…. I’m repeating the same thing.
I showed this reaction and you are going to do this again when there is no reaction from me,
which is another risk that I have to calculate at the moment….
So~~~~ sad! But this is my reality.
I do wish we were together! So I can just go with my romance version all the time.
Here comes my reality version again..
I want previlige, compensation and cash reward. No human involved, just cash!
Plus, recovery, enhancement, proper treatment and food supplement,
because this is quite energy-consuming.
Mr. Gates, I really love you. I wish I wouldn’t have to be realistic because my fantasy of being with you
is my reality now.
I love you.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Feel great!
Just got salary from the company.
^^;
Let cash fall from the sky right to me everyday!!!
Good afternoon!
Bill is calling me again.
So I’m writing to you like this……….
I took a walk and came straight back home as usual
and took a nap a little and Bill’s people started ‘virtual sex program’ again,
which is what I hate the most and I call unethical and inhumane all the time.
So, what do I get? – My reality version is asking a question to you.
Bill Gates promised me another big compensation and cash reward.
Now I have his word and some day, maybe within this year, I’ll be very rich.
I just checked news on you and found out that you are currently up to 2 issues,
Windows 7 and healthcare issue in India which is part of your foundation program.
I’m wide awake and still having virtual sex with you, so my mind is full of your faces here and there.
I wish we were together.
The distance between us makes everything so complicated and confusing.
If we were togher, there wouldn’t have been any misunderstanding, fight, or conflict between us.
All you wanted is just staying in touch with me.
I just backed off, frightened and having thousands of thoughts in my mind.
I didn’t really have to.
Please promise me one thing.
Promise me that Bill Gates will get rid of this virtual sex program for good
when I leave this apartment in April, 2009.
This virtual sex program is made by your people
and Bill Gates is going to use it only in this apartment for keeping our relationship.
Still having virtual sex with Bill Gates and this has become part of my daily routine.
This will end in April, 2009, and Bill and I will meet and have real sex.
Since we’ve been waiting for this for a long time,
I’m pretty sure that there will be something passionate, just like his character.
Good night, Bill.
I love you.
Truly yours,
Mira
Good morning.
Bill told me to ask any question..
Today’s question.
Do you smoke? Do you drink?
??
Have a good day!
I love you.
Mira
Good morning, again.
Please don’t do this to me.
I’m repeating this again.
What do I get?
I’m asking this qeustion again.
I want compensation, reward, cash, privilege,
and recovery, enhancement and treatment program.
What Bill Gates wants.
Bill wants to hear these words from me.
“Bill, please do me!”
Because what I’ve mentioned several weeks hurt his feeling.
I really don’t make you a bad person here.
I’m not judging you. I don’t want to hurt your feeling.
I know your intention and purpose.
You want to keep playing this game.
But I want to live my life and lead my life as a pleasant and game-free one.
Let’s go back to Bill’s scenario.
Bill eventually made Mira want him badly.
(But I want you even if you don’t do this.
I want you, but not this way.)
Bill made Mira contact him everyday..
I can’t think of anything else.
Is this all you want?
This simple?
How about this?
Even without doing this virtual sex program,
I want you and I will contact you from time to time.
Please don’t do this to me.
Have a good day.
I love you
Mira
Good afternoon.
I want compensation, cash reward and privilege
for what you’ve done to me for 3 months and 18 years.
I’m tired of what you and your partners have been doing to me.
And I really want to get out of this system after I get compensation from you and your partners.
I’m really sorry that you people have that much power and money and
don’t really know how to use them.
Although I’ve been the first live porn toy for you and
you’ve had this plenty of time to play with me and my life for 34 years,
I think this is going to be it and there will be no human in this system.
Yes, I’m pretty sure.
The world is changing and the notion on human right and the proper use of commercialism
has been developing at a rapid pace in a positive way.
Now, you and your partners just think that it is really simple to have a live porn toy
and you can make anybody a toy like me, however, some day anybody can see
that this kind of bad convention and custom will disappear.
I was too unfortunate and was born as a daughter of a stupid man, to become a child porn star
and I’m still being sexually exploited like this.
However, people are smart enough to get rid of this type of outrageous show for good.
I’m really sorry that I couldn’t say something good for what you’ve done to me for 18 years of my life.
Please take your people away from me and get rid of this stupid “virtual sex program”.
I’m telling you again that I’m a human just like you.
Mira
Good evening.
You must be sleeping at this hour.
What do I get for going through your virtual sex program.
I wish I could say I’m really enjoying it because the partner is Bill Gates,
however, I hate this.
Please get rid of this as soon as possible.
I want cash reward and compensation that you promised.
Today is Saturday.
On weekend, everybody enjoys something.
As for me, it’s been more than 11 years since I had really pressure-free and depression-free pleasant weekend.
Even before this period, I was just busy preparing exam and doing part time job.
I haven’t really had this kind of really pleasant weekend without any agony.
I really want to have a better life.
Please get rid of this virtual sex program.
It makes me feel !@#$$%%.
I’m a human just like you.
At least, let me have privacy down there…
If you really care about my happiness and really want to make me smile,
you can simply give me the reward and compensation and don’t physically harass me
and just leave me alone.
I know no one in this system actually likes me. And they just have issues over this show
and they have something to get from this show.
But, that doesn’t really have to be led to the invasion of my basic human right.
First of all, I want compensation from you.
Second of all, please get rid of this virtual sex program for good.
Finally, please, please leave me alone.
This program has been devised by you and your people.
It is your responsibility to get rid of this program
and let me enjoy privacy down there just like other women in the world.
This could be another joke you can make over dinner or drink,
however, this is my life and this is about me, who you really don’t consider as a human.
Just leave me alone and let me have privacy just like other women in the world.
Feels terrible.
Mira
Good morning.
Your people are doing it(?) again.
And I’m repeating the same thing again.
I really want to get my money you promised to give me
for this dirty virtual sex program you’ve done to me for 3 months.
If you don’t want me to mention your name during this show
or you don’t want me to write to you like this,
stop this program immediately..
I want my money and get over with this stupid program
you’ve made your people do to me.
STILL UNETHICAL AND INHUMANE..
I’m really sorry that I don’t have enough patience to smile at you
and tolerate everything and tell you “Thank you for doing this to me,
it is quite an honor for a girl like me.”
Have a good day.
Mira
Good morning.
Again, regarding your virtual sex program.
Your people advise me to use my head.
In short, please stop this.
Have a good day.
Mira
Good evening.
Your people really annoy me.
Please take your people away from me.
And give me the cash reward you promised!
Good night.
Mira
Good morning.
Bill Gates just called me, so I’m writing to you like this.
And again, you push me away.
I don’t get it.
Yesterday, your people ran this virtual sex program right
before I got delivery from home appliances store.
I was just too furious and asked you to stop this program again.
If we were together, there will be no issue like this
and everything will be just fun, pleasant and joyful.
However, this is really hard for me to take
when you play with this.
I have to wait until April to meet you.
It is a long time, it is half year, 6 months from now.
I wish Bill Gates magically shows up one day and takes me to the U.S..
It is really hard for me to spend time like this all by myself.
I miss you. Also I hate you because you play with my body.
I want to see you even in my dream all the time…
Have a good day!
Mira
Good morning.
Another call from you.
What is this message on the left?
^^
I’m writing to you with your virtual p!@#$% between my thigh, which is vigorously moving.
When are you going to stop your virtual sex program.
And what do I get?
This morning you are doing three bad things to me.
Physically, psychologically and sexually abusing me,
sexually harassing me and officially insulting me.
So, what do I get?
When are you going to stop this?
What Bill Gates wants to hear or read this morning is;
Good morning, Mr. Gates.
Apparently, your virtual p!@#$ is working between my thigh
and I feel so good and loved by you without any exception..
I’m so happy and glad that you do this to me everyday.
And I’m so honored that a great person like you never forgets to make love to me.
Please do this to me everyday, so I can feel you and enjoy the feeling of being loved by you.
Is this enough for a dirty note that you wanted to get from me?
Apparently, the response from your people isn’t really good.
Too much?
I’m getting really sarcastic.
So, what do I get?
I spend time and energy like this and your people are doing this nasty thing all the time.
Such a nasty attitude. Who even taught them and told them to do this kind of thing to a human?
I hope you are the only person in the world who actually enjoys this type of unethical and inhumane thing.
Have a nice day.
Mira
Good morning, again.
Your people made me write to you again.
Amazing!
As I told you, you are the world best option.
And for me, you are the second best option in this system..
The best option for me is getting out of this system after getting my money.
And there are two other options.
I’m just sticking to these options.
I keep insisting that the people of this system should get me out of system.
And I also try to keep in touch with you any way.
Besides, I try to keep the priority which belongs to Google at the moment
and I’m trying to start up my own business for another option.
I’m trying to make everything safe and stable.
You sexually tamed me, which is a really big variable for me.
If Bill Gates really shows up in front of me and takes me to the U.S.,
if there exists the guarantee like this, I can simply sit here like this
and won’t have to think of anything, but there is no guarantee.
There is only this program running, which isn’t really helping.
Where are we now?
That is the question.
There exists this program made by you, Bill Gates,
but there is no guarantee, but there is only confusion.
What are you up to?
I clarify my position, so please clarify yours.
You just want me to obey whatever you say under any circumstances.
That’s so unfair.
I hope there is guarantee without this program running.
I just want security and a better life. That’s it.
Everything I do is a way to achieve this goal.
That simple.
Have a good day.
Mira
How’ve you been?
I read about Google phone today.
I wish Google phone can be the star product of 4Q
and the promotive way to dominate the world(^^) soon.
Hope I meet both of you soon..
Have a good day!
Mira
Good morning!
It’s really peaceful Sunday morning.
Are you having nice weekend?
I enjoy using Chrome.
In particular, I like the feature that I click and drag a tab, and then a new window appears.
I was surprised. ^^;
I wish you good luck on making Chrome a default web browser on every PC and netbook.
Have a nice day!
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Let’s be an athlete!
BG still running the virtual sex program.
When I visit his website, there was a lot of money for me(^^).
I was satisfied. The total amount will be multiple billion.
Thank BG. Some day, the money will be mine.
Let cash fall from the sky right to me!
cash, cash, cash!!!!!
Hi, Larry and Sergey!
I saw an ad on a website which shows
Google website on a cell phone
and I really felt like to get one soon.
How’s everything going?
No news on Google for two days on any news website..
I’m wondering.
Have a good day.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
My options include getting my money and getting out of this system as my first and best option,
marrying Bill Gates as my second best option, marrying Larry Page as my third best option
and living as a single in N.Y while running my own business as my forth option.
The ideal combination of these four options is that they permit partial privacy and cut down the time of this show to 3 hours a day
and I marry Bill Gates, still having relationship with Larry and Sergey and running my own business.
Have a nice day!
Happy Thanksgiving!
I don’t know that much about Thanksgiving day tradition.
All I know is things that I learned from films and articles on the Internet websites.
A really big turkey on the center of the dinner table, pie and so on.
Anyway, have really good time with your family!
And congratulations on your receiving the Albert Einstein Award in December.
The information on the Albert Einstein Award that I found on a website is as follows;
The Albert Einstein Award (sometimes called the Albert Einstein Medal because it is accompanied with a gold medal) is an award in theoretical physics, that was established to recognize high achievement in the natural sciences. It was endowed by the Lewis and Rosa Strauss Memorial Fund in honor of Albert Einstein’s 70th birthday. It was first awarded in 1951 and included a prize money of $15,000, which was later reduced to $5,000. The winner is selected by a committee (the first of which consisted of Einstein, Oppenheimer, von Neumann and Weyl ) of the Institute for Advanced Study, which administers the award. Lewis L. Strauss used to be one of the trustees of the institute.
I’m really sorry that the prize money was reduced to $5,000.^^
Everybody knows and admits that Bill Gates had made a great achievement in computer science and IT industry,
and I’m pretty sure that it’s going to be very glorious and honorable Christmas season to Bill Gates.
Once again, happy thanksgiving!!
Sincerely yours,
Mira
P.S. Where are you going to spend the prize money? GIVE IT TO ME, BILL^^…………..
Happy Thanksgiving!
There is a Korean traditional holiday like this which is called Chuseok
and we usually administer an ancestor memorial rite
before we have Korean Thanksgiving breakfast.
I personally didn’t like tradition, so I usually spent the day like this
with my friends, eating out, taking a trip and going to the movie or concert.
You are going to have Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow.
Have a good time with your family!
Few days ago, I read an article on Google News, which was about IT infrastructure
and your CEO, Eric Schmidt mentioned about the enhancement of the infrastructure.
The enhancement and expansion of IT infrastructure isn’t just an issue in the U.S.,
but this is a global issue. Considering there are a lot of countries and people who don’t
have any opportunity to enjoy this type of online convenience, this should be approached more globally, I think.
You launched Chrome September this year and your market share has been rising since then.
I’m really happy about it, and if global IT infrastructure is enhanced and expanded at a rapid pace,
the number of Chrome user will increase as well as your market share.
After all, the number of market share has just a relative meaning.
I hope it could happen really soon, so I can enjoy a little part of its benefit as a business owner.^^
Happy Thanksgiving!
Truly yours,
Mira
25% ready to throw myself into the “river of endless love” with Bill Gates.
The first theme song of our romance is “So In Love”.
Am I unique?
I think I’m a dreamer who dreams of well-controlled everlasting relationship with my PRECIOUS person.
What do you want?
Please leave me alone.
Bill Gates told me to use my head.
When is he going to get rid of this thing?
When can I get out of this system?
I’m tired of arguing with them.
Everybody in the world doesn’t have to experience this unpleasant sexual harrassment.
So, what do I get?
I’m really sorry that I was born from a wrong person at a wrong place surrounded by wrong people.
Mira: Why did you call me?
Bill:…..
Mira: I’m tired of you and your people playing with me.
I just want my money.
Bill:…..
Mira: Please stop calling me like this.
Bye.
Let cash fall from the sky right to me!!!!!!!!!!
Let all of my wishes come true!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CASH!! CASH!!
I LOVE CASH IN THIS SYSTEM!!
Bill told me to change my car.
I don’t have a car.
If Bill shows up and takes me to the U.S. and marries me,
I may have one of his car.
If he doesn’t, I will go to the U.S. and get a car some day.
Any way, thanks for your consideration.
I prefer cash there days. A lot of cash.
Let cash fall from the sky right to me!!!!!!!!!!
Mira: What’s this call about?
Bill: Just my daily routine.
Mira: I really envy you cuz you just tell people to do anything you want
without doing anything. Things seem very convenient for you.
Bill: ^^
Bill: What’s going on? Major players seem to have changed.
Mira: Nothing. I added 6 more players and I need them.
I just watched a good program on National Geographic channel.
Snails were having sex and which seems pretty informative.
We can be on this channel. They showed their interest on us.
Bill: ^^
Mira: Have a good day.
Wealth. Having a really good life with really good people.
Good morning, Larry and Sergey.
How’ve you been? Busy working on Google phone and Chrome?
I’ve been busy winning as I expected.^^
I read an article on Google and found out that your profit is fairly high for your revenue as of Oct., 2008.
That’s why I love e-biz so much. Good for you.
It usually takes only development cost and fixed expenses and costs at the first phase
and then everything is all yours. So clean and neat once you establish your name and reputation in this industry.
When we think of e-biz, every corporation in this industry is still in its introduction period, I think.
When are we going to reach its maturity?
How can we predict this?
I think we should refer to other product or industry which is in its maturity period.
Today, almost everybody in the world is watching TV and enjoying media.
When was TV invented? When was the concept of media introduced?
Long before we were born.
TV and media indutry are in their maturity period and they are being replaced with or transformed into
more sophisticated and convenient form.
Exactly when can we see this kind of phenomenon in IT industry?
I’m still guessing.
Have a good day.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Bill, I need cash now.
Could you please avoid calling me like this while I’m working?
You have a lot of money, so you don’t really have to care about making money.
But, unlike you, I don’t have that much money just to focus on this type of wierd sexual play at the moment.
If I’m rich like you, I can enjoy that kind of luxury all the time.
However, romance like this always requires certain amount of money and time margin.
Let cash fall from the sky right to me. I pray this all the time.
Just want to be stable and secure when I’m in love. So I can just focus on my emotion and feeling.
I wish we were together right now, anyway.
My Christmas wish is that Bill shows up and takes me to the U.S.. and marries me.
So nice and clean!
To Sergey and Larry
Hi. It’s almost 2 a.m. there.
It’s become almost 2 years and 6 months since I first wrote to you.
This year, Google becomes the world mightest 10 year-old corporation,
which makes both of you really proud.
I wish you a very merry Christmas and a happy new year!!
Love,
Mira
From this system, so called the show, I want to get everything in my wish book
and partial privacy.
1. This system will exist as a world power and money platform.
2. It will function as an investment and PR tool.
3. The show time will be reduced to 3 hours a week, which means I have partial privacy at least 5 days a week
and there will be a designated show place and my own private place and time will be perfectly secured.
4.. And if I marry a billionaire like Bill Gates, my second best option or Larry Page, my third best option,
this show is going to be mainly about idea or information sharing.
5. The official objectives of this show will be 3W’s, World Peace, World Health and World Wealth.
These objectives will be pursued during the show time, 3 hours a week. There will be proper and reasonable payment for doing this show
and profit distribution for any idea, invention or other type of creation activity which may create commercial value.
Whether people like me or not, I’m the show host, because I was born here in this system
and unlike past years, I want to reemphasize on my partial privacy for at least 5 days a week.
Partial privacy means securing my private time and place, freedom of economic activity and others.
Freedom of economic activity means no surveillance and no game player at my work or other place during my private time.
Have a good day.^^;
Good afternoon.
I hope you had a wonderful Christmas
and I wish you a happy new year!!
I always receive so many signs from so many people and organization,
but I’m not sure whether I can have direct responses from that specific person or organization
after I respond to their request.
This is a very vague and abstract area in this system.
I still get a lot of criticism for my existence all the time and get abused by people like this for so many years.
No one actually gets this kind of treatment in his real life, but it happened to me
and I’m wondering what kind of compensation I can actually get from them.
I think I have done my best in this system since I was born.
And I’m doing my best with my good will.
The answer and attitude they want from me is
I become more obedient and understand whatever they do to me.
However, I’m a human. So, just like everybody else, I get furious when people abuse me physically, psychologically and sexually.
I want privacy just like other people.
Here is the plan you want to get from me.
If I go in my fox mode which literally means a very sly attitude to get whatever I want, I should get you this plan, and just flatter a little bit, saying “I love you” repeatedly
and if I get really lucky and this kind of attitude moves Bill’s heart, Bill will send me an email
and then, our actual relationship will begin.
If I go in my bear mode(you know how bears act and what bears do), you will just find out what this means from now on.
As I explained to you, this system is going to be a power and money platform and function as an investment and PR tool just like other media.
Its official objectives include World peace, World health and World wealth while this show continues its existence.
Here’s how.
I simply introduce the world 500 biggest corporations and 1000 billionaires, which will be the funders and investors as well as main beneficiaries of the PR function of this system and then, I introduce some organization and people that have the same objectives as this system’s.
As for its investment sector, the first 10 years from 2009 to 2019 will be dedicated to enhancing the global IT infrastructure and then, its focus will move on to new clean energy infrastructure for the period from 2019 to 2029, and the next decade will be reserved for the robotics.
Then, I become 64. Now, they call me grandma. Will they need me when I become 64?
What Bill really wants is my answer on 8 agendas and you can find my answer on one of them from above paragraph.
You will have funders and support from people to achieve your objectives of global health and anti-poverty.
This is what you want. Money and support.
As for 7 agendas and my specific plan, I promised to you that I will give you when I really meet you. This system itself overwhelms me all the time even when I don’t do anything and never goes outside like this. More serious and specific discussion requires firm gurantee and protection. However, I’ve never got these kinds of things from anybody..
Bill, I really want to have a peaceful and pleasant life without any harrassment and abuse. I’ve been here like this for 2 years, getting abused by people.. And the reason was that I just told them the truth.
Even though I get this inhumane treatment from them, I tried really hard to be positive and optimistic and did my best to make this show better, however, it is really tough for me to take.
With a little bit of soft and kind air and a little bit of good words, I can get what I want according to what they say.
However, from the moment when I begin to think that something is unfair, I cannot be the person that they want me to be. What are you going to do if you are in my position?
Have a good day..
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Good evening.
I just read an article on your foundation’s activity of dissolving big high schools into small ones
in order to improve the connectivity between students and teachers.
First of all, I’m really impressed with the fact that a private foundation can carry out this big scaled project nationwide.
Second of all, why silver bullet? Please make it platinum or gold. Show me a little more affection. I want to stay young.
Frankly speaking, I’m a little shocked at the record indicating the the current graduation rate of the average high school in New York is 50%, while the Gates-funded school shows 70%.
Now, I’m collecting my thought and trying to start a little chat with myself with my very honest, little voice.
Good morning.
There is few moments when words are not good enough to express my feelings.
I’m attaching funny pictures that I drew this morning, thinking about you.
Have a good day.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
I couldn’t send my pictures.
Good morning. Also, happy new year!!
I didn’t realize that it was new year’s day when I woke up this morning.
I just turn 36 in Korean age and feel miserable(T.T), however, I’m still 34 in American age. I love America.
What is your new year’s resolution?
Higher profit, development of innovative key softwares, both vertical and horizontal expansion of business,
ridding extreme poverty globally, better health benefit for everybody in the world, and better education for children, maybe?
Mine is more like a wish. A lot of cash, meeting Bill Gates and having fun and doing what I’ve always wanted to do.
I want to know your 10 best moments in your life and 10 best moments in your future you want to have.
As for me, I just want to think about my future 10 best moments. Joyful, heart-warming, satisfying and proud moments.
Have a good day!
Sincerely yours,
Mira
Good evening.
How was your day?
I took few pictures and wrote something that I’m not sure I can finish before I die.
I have a question.
If we really meet, do we admit the existence of this show first or do we have to pretend that this show doesn’t exist at all?
It has existed. But, no one’s ever told me its existence and everybody around me has pretended it didn’t exist.
I’m just wondering.
As far as I know, you’re checking my every mail box and reading my mails and writings.
I’m so honored that you have interest in me so much.
Could you do me a favor?
My writing is like a chat with myself to console my lonelieness and it is too inconsistent and nothing to be judged by anyone.
Please do not make any decision based upon it. It is just my own thought that passes and flows inside of me.
What’s ahead of me is my plan that I revealed to everybody.
Why do I have to be told “a mistress of someone” whenever I mention “women” issues?
Does becoming a someone’s first wife take ignoring the general issues dicussed among women and just going for the happy ending of the Cinderella story?
Even though I get lucky and become a first wife of “somebody” like you, I can have those kinds of thoughts and sometimes, I want to discuss them with myself.
One more thing.
Could you please just let me continue my economic activity until I actually, really get married with you?
Writings bring no money and it doesn’t have any commercial value at all to me in this system until now. But, people around me have been making money by publishing my book as I assume. As for me, my current income is very unstable and sometimes, they levy outrageous fee or tax on me. And I don’t know why. All I know is it is really unfair, but I don’t have any strength left to argue about it any more.
There is just ambiguous hope and expectation of the best option, marrying you by sending emails to you like this. But, until it actually happens, I need money to live on. If I’m an ordinary person without this show, I don’t have any opportunity like this, so I know I have to be very pleased and pretend to be hopeful and expecting your reply all the time. And If I were an ordinary person without this show, I wouldn’t have had to suffer from anything that happened in this system and I would have been enjoying a certain level of life that other people with the similar ability and intelligence to me and I wouldn’t have had to worry about this kind of thing and ask a favor like this of you. It’s like both sides of the coin. It would be very wise for me just to focus on its side of expectation and hope and discuss this, but I’m too weak to reserve my own thought on another side of the coin.
Here is what I wrote today. So nothing. Please don’t laugh at me.
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I want a blusher.
I need a lip pallet.
I’ve got to get an eye shadow pallet.
I’m going to get nose refinement.
I want lower chick bones.
I should make my belly flat this year.
I have so many desires.
I’m not pretty.
But, I’m not that ugly.
Not pretty enough to be a model or an actress, but, I’m just a plain-looking Asian woman.
I just turn 36.
I felt like to choke this morning after I found out another new year just began.
I heard a clock ticking here and there.
I don’t have much time.
Time for what?
Am I the only woman who thinks like this?
Desire for what and whom?
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* Man-oriented commercialism
* Standard of beauty
* History of media
* Pursuing beauty is one of human’s basic instincts?
* Why do men less care about their appearance?
* Cinderella Industry
* Ultimate purpose of women’s pursuing beauty: Rescue or self-contentment?
* Why do we have to try to be beautiful?
* What is my purpose of writing this? To find out
- the current scale of the beauty product market;
- the role of the mecca of women’s fashion – Paris and New York;
- ?????????
* Sexuality and sensuality
* Resbian, has this concept been made for and by us, women?
* What do I want to say in a word? Let’s not confuse readers. There are too many writings flooding into book stores and websites.
Let’s just save their time reading my writing. I don’t know yet. But, I want to scream to the world. “I love what I am. I love who I am.
I will love me whether I’m 36 or I turn 100. I will exist in the world the way I am even when I turn 80 or 90. The clock of my life will still be ticking then, but I won’t care. Because, because………….” see you later. Let me find out this in years, decades or whatsoever.
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This kind of thought has begun to exist in my mind soly due to this system.
I was born in the center of commercialism and as I grew up, there had been so many controversial issues having happened around me. I’m not sure if I can finish this book or thesis and all I wish now is writing this shouldn’t distract my plan.
I don’t want to be a writer in this system if I don’t have the really significant amount of money in my bank account perfectly secured which covers all the benefits that I can enjoy by realizing my options. I want money to have a good life and I have a much better option to make money other than writing.
I’m always talking about myself every time I write to you.
I hope this could lead to a bidirectional communication some day.
Once again, happy new year and thank you for reading this.
Sincerely yours,
Mira
P.S. I really love you. I’m not joking.
I need cash.
I want my life in perfect shape, physically, psychologically and economically.
I don’t want to be locked up in a place due to physical, psychological and economical abuse done by anyone.
I want to be free until I die.
No one can limit my anything for any reason.
No physical, psychological and economical limitation on anybody. Implied warranty for everyone in the world.
Who has the right to make a decision on these things? No one.
This is going to be the last time that I’m locked up in a place.
(I have to care about inconsistency and volatility even when I’m talking to myself. What kind of system is this? @@#$%#$#^ to @#$!@#$^$%#^$%^@$%#@!!!!)
Bill just identified himself as my son.
5 minutes ago, he was my father.
Few hours ago, we were having sex.
Last night, he was my Five.
Interesting!
